august 14

Say, dear friend, do you reckon God looks down on us with contempt? Do you believe a being said to hold only true and unconditional love would be capable of that?

Forgive me, I've stopped believing in that a long time ago. It tore me apart.

I think a true God would see the faults in their creations and resent themself for it, wishing they could tear it all down. I like to believe that God sits in their chair day by day in silence and blows their own head up trying to search for a way to rid humanity of all its sins.

Jesus had died for all our sins, yes, but there are some that are truly unforgivable. I don't see how a God could ever let themself live with that.

august 14 - again

That Summer Ghost review has been sitting in my blog's drafts for weeks now. I don't really know what to do with it anymore. There's a lot I want to say, really. There's always a lot to say about something that makes me feel feelings, but I don't know, I don't know how to word it. I don't know where to start, where to end. I always feel so restricted when I'm writing reviews. I feel like I should follow a certain structure - separate it with clean sections. Everything I don't do.

Quite unfortunate, really, because there's so much I want to say. I've always been a sucker for the mundane. Granted, the film's whole message was barely buried - you didn't have to think much. It basically spelled it out for you. But still.

Anywho, nothing happened today. Nothing at all. It's honestly heartbreaking. I wish I had more going on in my life, but I can't even bring myself to leave the house most times.